Well since school has started I've had a heck of a time finding room for blogging. I did find room to become almost $300 in the hole... My kitty Bella became a lady a week ago and I had to schedule an appt to get her spayed. I think I have a pretty good idea what it's like to be a parent. Minus the whole birthing thing, and teaching them how to walk, talk, and be potty trained. So not really a good comparison...but I was so worried about her when I dropped her off at the vet. I already consider myself to be an over-analyzer and obsesser. I worry about everthing. This was a different type of worry, though. I honestly felt physical pain leaving her at the vet. And that animal hospital is so nice and clean and the staff is wonderful, so I was put at ease that she was in good hands. I just knew she wasn't at home and I started to worry about her surgery going well. Then I thought oh this is a routine surgery, they do them all the time and every cat we've ever had has gone through it and come out just fine. Then I worried about her still loving me after I pick her up.
I was honestly worried about whether or not she'd forgive me for taking her to a place she'd never seen before, letting them put her out only to wake up in pain with a scar and a shaved belly. I wouldn't love me after that either!
But she still loves me and she's already back to normal except she is taking it easy and I can tell she hurts a little at times, but she snuggles and gets playful a little bit here and there. I was really sad when I brought her home and she hardly wanted me to touch her at all. That's all I wanted to do, too. I wanted to pet her and comfort her for hours until she could go to sleep and wake up a little better the next day. But she growled and moaned and got irritated when I'd pet her. I felt so rejected and sad!
The next morning she wanted loves and let me pet her as much as I wanted and even let me pick her up. She snuggled up with me on the chair and loved me back.I was so relieved. I worried she wouldn't be the same kitty afterwards. Today and tonight she has been normal little Bella. Through their usual assessments and checking they had to give her vaccines and treat her little ears for earmites and so that tacked on some extra moolah. I have to take her back in three weeks for another round of vaccines and treatment in her ears. I can't wait till her shots and treatments are all finished and she can resume being a normal little kitty.
So I just wanted to thank your for your blog music...My reading your blog turned to Steele and I rocking out for a good 10 minutes to a couple of the your songs! LOL :D
Posted by: Lisette Winner | 01/25/2011 at 11:36 AM
Im glad that she is okay!! I know how you feel though!
Posted by: Janessa | 01/25/2011 at 11:42 AM